Time is something I will never be able to fully
grasp. There are days that seem to fly
by and then those that seem to be lasting forever. Funny how it’s the days we want to last
forever that seem the shortest, yet the moments and memories feel endless when
we look back. I think about the people I
see everyday that have become pieces of my life. The ones I would begin to feel off if they weren't there. And then the ones who
show up for only a couple of months or years but leave such a big mark. I can’t help but wonder why they didn't stay
longer or I didn't find them earlier. I
never used to understand what people meant when they said life flies by. But now I’m starting to understand it. Time is an interesting little thing. Sometimes it’s your best friend while other
times it’s your enemy. Time can rip us
apart or hold us together. But there is
no trend that it follows. It just
follows along and pops in when fate says “go”.
In life nothing seems consistent.
People come and go events happen and stories are written, all the while
time is there. Sometimes it’s hiding and
letting everything unfold while sometimes it gets right smack in the middle of
everything so visible and unavoidable we want to scream at it to go away. As much as I hate to say it, time always
finds a way to be right. Even when it’s
hardest to accept it, it always does the right thing in the end, I think. But I never seem to fully realize it until
later when time has allowed me to mull it all over again and again and again.
Time is a love-hate relationship. And
it’s taught me that life is too short to postpone anything.
Friday, September 28, 2012
Tuesday, September 4, 2012
In This Place
I
like to look back. I like to remember
what it was like before I entered this place.
Before, it felt as if I was wandering around, sleep walking through my
life. The people were the same, the
places were the same. I had those I could
call my friends, but they were just a number.
It’s clear now what true friendship is.
I found a group that I can call my own.
My family away from home. I’m
slowly building a home here too. When I came
to this place, I wasn’t sure if I should settle. I like to second guess things, doubt them to
test their credibility. But it didn’t
take long. It didn’t take long for any
doubts to disappear. This is where I am
meant to be. I woke up. I woke up and discovered that there was so
much more to life than what I was living.
No more pretending, no more walls.
I discovered myself and found out I liked her. And other people liked her too. So I took off the covers and wore my own
skin. I’ve learned a lot in just one
year. I’ve made mistakes and I’ve
claimed my place. No more re-reading the
past, no more resisting the future. I am
content. Right here, in this place. Holding the hands of people I have come to
love. I am never letting go of
them. We like to live, be goofy, laugh
loudly and just be us together. I am
lucky. And I will be forever grateful for
that, and never forget it. Growing up
isn’t easy and I know that I am nowhere near ready to do it but I know that I can
do it. And I know that I won’t have to
do it alone. If there is one thing that I
have learned to be true, it’s that everything happens for a reason. And somehow, someway, we might just figure it
out.
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